Here am I. Send me.

A few days ago I watched a movie called The Pianist. If you haven't seen it, stop reading this, come over and watch it. It's amazing. Not the kind of sappy/overdone/make you cry types of movies, but the one that makes your heart yearn to fix the world. It's set in WWII, and it's about a pianist who manages to survive the terrible Holocaust.
I'd seen it before, but this time it really made me think.
You see, I've got a great-great aunt that hid Jews during the war. She was one of those selfless people who was willing to give up her life for a complete stranger.
She is the type of role model I want to become.

I think that's why I feel so called into mission work. There's such a huge part of me that wants to say " Here I am. Send me!" and see where He takes me. To help people in need, to truly feel their pain and bring about some sort of relief that can only be fond through true faith in the only Comforter. Sometimes I feel so useless in the church I'm in. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE that church, and I truly believe in what I hear every Sunday, and I'm so thankful that I've been brought up in a Christian church! But I'm a 17 year old girl, looked down upon not only for my age, but for my gender as well. And to be honest, there's so little I can do in a church of believers. Yes, there are people in the church who do need help, but being the stubborn Dutch people they are are, people will rarely admit it, and certainly not to some teenager.
I think the most frustrating thing for me, is the lack of want to spread our faith. We want to horde it for ourselves, and not share it with those who might not be as well off as we are. Even the mention of doing mission work is so frowned upon among people I know. And that breaks my heart. Honestly and truly.
I understand ( and fully agree with!) that women can`t be preachers. But wanting to go overseas, or even in the streets of Calgary in order to tell other people about the good news is such a beautiful opportunity! Doesn`t God command us to go into all nations, spreading the good news to all the people?
So for right now, I'm praying hard, and reading God's word trying to figure out what it is He wants me to do. Going to University, getting something in Music or English and teaching is a dream that makes me very excited. But there's always, always, that little voice inside my head that says " What about mission work?" It's always been there, and I'm starting to think I need to listen to it more.

Day 13/14!

Day 13 - A memory that never fails to make you laugh.
Haha, there are so many. Yay for inside jokes and amazing memories! :)
I HAS FANTA!
LOOK! He's peeing! "WHERE!?!" ( Please don't ask)
Great scott!!! A free pig!!!!

Oh man, so many other ones I could mention. Such as adventures in airports, flipping a coin for directions, staying out until the wee hours singing on picnic tables in front of old folks homes, talking about using intestines as jump ropes ( which is larger?? ), making phone calls to Europe in a mall, ORANGE! and viggo's mustache!
I've got awesome friends. What can I say?


Day 14 - Best mashup you’ve ever heard.
Hmmmm I really don't even know. These are ones I've listened to a lot. Yes, more Glee. I'm nowhere near a Gleek, or whatever it is they're called, but I enjoy the music.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uuadCJRpFsE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5n1615vnUIQ&feature=related

Day 12!

Day 12 - Favorite cover of your favorite song. Oh boy. I've got quite a few favorite songs. But I found this one today ( actually like 5 minutes ago) and I thought it was pretty fantastic! :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oNHTCglQ_Wk&feature=popular

Day 11!

Does it still count if it's at 1am? :) What about if I told you I've got a SUPER amazing,blog post coming up? You'd tell me to just focus on actually blogging and not procrastinating... -sigh- :P

Day 11 - Favorite picture ever taken of yourself.

OH goodness. This one I guess?? It's hard to find ones of just me because I'm usually the one behind the camera :)

Day 10

Day 10 - A dream you had this past week described in detail.

I honestly can't remember!!! I think I've been working my brain so hard this past week that by the time sleep gets to it, it's all worked out!! There's absolutely nothing coming to mind! Mind you...there ain't much mind left to produce comprehensive thought at the moment.

Good night world.

Day 9!

Day 9 - Five things you want to see change.

1. How I deal with issues. I tend to just panic and procrastinate so that I don't have to face problems. Not something I'm proud of and it's something I'd love to see change.

2. Health of people around me. It would be really nice to fix the pain that the people I love are going through.

3. My grades. I would love to be the kind of student who pulls off 80s and 90s and has a bright future filled with all sorts of possibilities. That would be so much better than the current 60s-70s that are my reality, my present, and controlling my future. It's so frustrating.

4. The temperature of my room. It's freezing!!!

5. How much I am willing to let go. I wish that I trusted God more. I tend to want to fix problems myself first, rather than take to Him in prayer. It only ends in failure, and I get reminded over and over again that I'm so incapable, and that He's all powerful! Another trust issue I have is how much I trust people. So often, I trust the wrong people, or don't trust the right people enough to let them in and let them help. Like I said, I want to fix my problems before I'll admit something is wrong.

Since those were slightly depressing, I'm going to put in 5 things I wouldn't change.
1. The friends I have. They're so amazing. Seriously, I don't tell them often enough how much I love them. I would go to the end of the world and back for them if they so desired it. They've given me the most amazing memories, which are things I can pull out on the rainy days and admire.

2. My family. God knew exactly what he was doing when he put me in this one. We're crazy, we're different, but we're walking life together.

3. The other random people God has put in my life. All my 'fake' uncles and aunts who are there to silently support me. As if my friends and immediate family weren't supportive enough, God put so many other people who are there no matter what! Especially my second family. I love that we're two different families, and yet run as one thirteen member unit.

4. The things I've been through. It hasn't been easy, but God's pulled me through everything, and there's no good without the bad. And most days, the good things overwhelm the bad. That's not something everyone can boast of, and it's something I need to focus on more.

5. I would like my life in general not to change too much. It's so super special amazing awesome sauceum most days, and those days make up for the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad days.
Most adjectives in one sentence FTW!

Day 8

Day 8 - Someone you think would make a good president.

My father. You think after working for high-up people he would pick up on some excellent tips. He's the smartest person I know about those tpes of things.

Of course a second choice would be Heidi-Jo and Lizzie. They've got wicked world domination skillz. They'd do a fairly decent job at making this place pretty awesome sauceum. Although now that you've read this, they might have to kill you. Or me.